Such a Klutz.

So, last sunday i went out with Ryan and our friend Tony and his girlfriend. It went really well and we all had a lot of fun. But, then a couple nights later Ryan texted me and he said he was at Ben's house. Eveer since then, he doesn't really seem too interested. I want to know what Ben said because I had a feeling that he said something to make Ryan chance his mind about me. Or maybe it was because when he texted me when I was at meaghan's house, I told him what we were doing :talking in the dark hahaha. And maybe he though it was wierd? I dont know. My mom keeps asking me whether hes texting me or not and if he's not she says "WELL, WHY NOT??" and shes trying to be funny but it really isn't....it's gets me thinking that he doesn't like me.
So, lately I have had so much on my mind regarding boys and it's so overwhelming. This is all my thoughts:
Does ryan like me or not? What did Ben say to Ryan? Jamie wnats to go out with me but i've never even met him! Travis likes me. This kid Brad likes me and I don't even know him. Meaghan emily and lauren had a sleepover and din't call me. Im sick of Joey and Lauren always being together. I'm so sick of my mom and my sister fighting. I'm nervous about this year. I cn't deal with Lauren L's problems anymore and I feel really bad. My teeth hurt because of the spacers, Im getting braces on tuesday (tops) and they might make me look wierd.Theres just so much going on that one day I'm just going to crack!!!!!
I've been such a klutz lately because of all these things running through my mind every single second of everyday. I'm tired and my mom keeps bugging me on going out with my friend when i just want to stay in and just chill by myself and get things straightened out with me first. I;m just so overwhlemed and IT'S SUMMER. This shouldnt be happening. Like yesterday at Target I got a slushie and the guy specifically said "dont fill it up all the way or it will overflow." and what did i do? I FILLED IT UP ALL THE WAY. and what did it do? OVERFLOWED. then when i went to get a napkin, i hit the cup and it spilt everywhere. It was such a mess and it was embarassing. But, whatever.
I give up on boys. I really do. They are just so like wierd. One minute they like you and then the next minute they dont. so, i give up, again.