She just bothers me so much,

My sister. She judges everyone and she says that she doesnt want to be judged. It's aggravating. Today in the car my mom said she and my friend emily were exactly the same, because they are, and she was like "ughhh im annoying??". Emily has a pretty tough life and doesnt need my sister judging her. My sister doesnt even know Emily so she needs to shut the frig up.
Me and her are just soooo different even though we look "exactly alike" or so everyone says. Examples are : Maribeth- loves reading, hates her body, cares SO MUCH about what other people think, thinks she needs a boyfriend, judges people, doesn't like helping people all that much, hates exercising, and is quite annoying if you ask me.
Now I- dont like readin,g don't really care what strangers think of me, I'm pretty confident in myself, I really don't need a guy, I like taking care of my body and exercising and stuff, I like to help people, and I can be anoying at times but i dont think thaaat often.
Idk how im going to do it allllll next year and maybe the year after. Im going to have to start standing up for myself a little bit. Shes just always been so much like bigger than me but now shes not. I've always been afraid of her and kinda still am because i hate it when people are mad at me but i just dont think i can take it without saying anything. I dont even know if i can stand it during the summer. She needs a boyfriend. Unlike me, who can survive without one. she needs to go to therepy. thats what she needs.

weeek from hell.

Okay so this week has been terrible. I tried out for cheerleading on monday and i absolutely hated it. I knew i wasn't ever going to like it either so I just gave up. I hope I didn't make a mistake but I think i am a dancer, not a cheerleader. It just was not for me. When I see a girl falling towards me my instinct is to run away. When i jump and go backwards i am afraid that i will crack my head open. It just wasn't my thing and that's okay! So, I quit. Im kind of dissapointed in myself but i was so stressed and i was crying like the past 3 days over and how i didn't want to go back. It was just plain out bad and not for me. I think i am going to go back to colroguard and dance. Whatever. One of the only reasons i wasnte to do it was so i could cheer at the games and thats really it. But, as they said, that's only a tiny tiny part of cheerleading it is so so so much harder than it looks. Another reason was so that I could be different but I can mkae my mark wihtout being a cheerleader right? I just dont want to follow in my sister's footsteps i wanna make my own path for myself and do stuff i want to do. But, my sister and I like the same things, we both love music and artsy things. Oh well, i guess im nicer than her so that counts.
So this kid Ryan likes me and he seems pretty nice. Andd this kid Tony thinks im hot and this other kid Kody likes me too. Along with matt but i dont know if he still does. I dont really like matt cuz i never talk to him haha and then kody and tony are my friends so i could never go out with them cuz that woulkd be wierd haha anddd Ryan? I dont know about him either because I just started getting to know him. But who knows, maybe we could be something(:
so yeah that was my week from hell. and on top of it all i found out that my teacher from 5th grade passed away and I really liked her. She's going to be missed. She was such a great teacher and never yelled at anyone. I wish i got a chance to see her before she died, i really do.