weeek from hell.

Okay so this week has been terrible. I tried out for cheerleading on monday and i absolutely hated it. I knew i wasn't ever going to like it either so I just gave up. I hope I didn't make a mistake but I think i am a dancer, not a cheerleader. It just was not for me. When I see a girl falling towards me my instinct is to run away. When i jump and go backwards i am afraid that i will crack my head open. It just wasn't my thing and that's okay! So, I quit. Im kind of dissapointed in myself but i was so stressed and i was crying like the past 3 days over and how i didn't want to go back. It was just plain out bad and not for me. I think i am going to go back to colroguard and dance. Whatever. One of the only reasons i wasnte to do it was so i could cheer at the games and thats really it. But, as they said, that's only a tiny tiny part of cheerleading it is so so so much harder than it looks. Another reason was so that I could be different but I can mkae my mark wihtout being a cheerleader right? I just dont want to follow in my sister's footsteps i wanna make my own path for myself and do stuff i want to do. But, my sister and I like the same things, we both love music and artsy things. Oh well, i guess im nicer than her so that counts.
So this kid Ryan likes me and he seems pretty nice. Andd this kid Tony thinks im hot and this other kid Kody likes me too. Along with matt but i dont know if he still does. I dont really like matt cuz i never talk to him haha and then kody and tony are my friends so i could never go out with them cuz that woulkd be wierd haha anddd Ryan? I dont know about him either because I just started getting to know him. But who knows, maybe we could be something(:
so yeah that was my week from hell. and on top of it all i found out that my teacher from 5th grade passed away and I really liked her. She's going to be missed. She was such a great teacher and never yelled at anyone. I wish i got a chance to see her before she died, i really do.