well aren't you mr.perfect...

OK, me and ben broke up. he first told me the reason was because he felt really bad going behind his parents' backs. that's undertsandable. but then this girl catherine Ims me and tells me that ben asked her out. so, of course, i got mad. thenn i dont even remember what happened but my mom and his mom talked and then he got all mad because i told her what was going on between me and him, he got really mad and like was putting words into my mouth that he never said and told me to just leave him alone. he said he was going to ask me out again but now he just wants me to leave him alone. w/e. im sorry ben that i couldnt be pefect for you. but you need to grow up and face reality and learn some social skills.
that's really hard to do, to like ignore him. For some reaosn i really miss him sometimes. i dont know why. He doesnt treat me taht great...and now that i think about it he isnt even that cute. haha ill get over him sooner or later. I just really wish he would stop being mad at me cuz i never never never said what he thinks i said and he thinks im a lier but im not. =( i just wish he would listen to me, and just really realy listen. or you know, at least CALL me and not IM me...seriously grow up.
Im sorta liking this kid andrew in my school. he's in 3 of my classes and i talk to him quite a bit. yesterday he took my phone from me and added his number. haha i thought it was cute =)
It's 2 days till christmas and im soo excited ! The only thing is is that my sister is home. and so is my mom. my mom plus my sister equals not good. They fight like every day about the silliest things. I thinkt hey fight so much because they are exactly alike. My sister is usually such a downer when my mom;s around and idk why. she used to be really fun until she turned like 16. then all she wnated was to be cool. she always complains about her weight sooo much. and so does my mom. im so tired of it. they need to learn to except themselves as they are. I did, and im only 15. So I think a 50 year old and a 19 year old can do it too. It's hard, but it's possible.
I'm starting to realize who i really am and who my real friends are. Lauren Megg and Emily are such good friends and even if they do get mad at me sometimes, i dont care. They know the real me and except me for me. They make me feel good about myself...and every one needs people like that in their lives. =)