we have to move on.

My friend lauren L. is kinda driving me insane. Her life is so depressing it's ridiculous. she thinks she an't help it but really she can. she just doesnt want to. she says that since her uncle ouldnt survive this life she doesnt know how she can since he was the strongest person she knew. He was depressed. depression is an illness and it can make tyou do things you do not usually do. she;'s not depressed (not yet anyways) so she CAn be happy. there is nothing holding her back from that. her grandmother is dieing, wait, no, her GREAT grandmother. she thinks that no one knows what she is going through, but basically everyone does. everyone has lost someone veryveryvery close to them including me. I have also lost a cousin to drug abuse and another cousin is abusing drugs now. Everyone has something in their lives that they can't control or are not happy about. However, we all get through it and so will she. she just has learn to cope with the thing sthat she cannot control and move on. That is what these people who we are mourning over would want. They wouldn't want us just to sit around feeling sorry for ourselves. So, in honor of them, we should live their lives the way that they would want us to live them.

I've been thinking a lot of last year. I have spent too long trying to move on. So, i decided instead of holding my feelings in, im just going to let them run their course. I will move on when the time is right. i will probably always havew a little plae in my heart for ben, but another guy (and others after him) will too. Until I find the right one, and he will beat all these other guys and be amazing. So, ill wait. and let those feelings run its course to. Time to let go and move on.


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